SHE WHOM THE GODS FEARED: INSIDE THE MIND OF A MONSTER
How do you go from being the most beautiful and desired woman in the woman to the most hated and feared? It is people that make monsters of other people. If you want to make the world a better place, look in the mirror and make a change. These are just some things that come to mind when i think of how others can make one so evil.
From a writer's perspective i must say that i had a lot of sympathy for this character because of the way she was treated. I grew up in Africa and there are many times i witnessed injustice. There are many times i saw people go through things they were not supposed to all because people just labeled them as a black sheep. Growing up i remember being accused of stealing from my uncle and his wife and i remember being told that if i admit it to being a thief, i would be freed, but if i denied it, i would be beaten. The trick is you don't win either way. If you admit to being a thief, you will be beaten and if you don't you will be beaten until you admit to being a thief. Either way you will be beaten.
People face injustice all of the time, but i believe the most crucial and cruel way to be in that predicament is when you are accused of doing something or being someone that you are not. How do you prove yourself from that? There are so many things that you can say and do to defend yourself, but what if people want to actual truth but refused to accept it? What if people want to see you suffer? That ladies and gentlemen is exactly what i had to go through for a long time in my childhood.
The bitch who put me through all of this pain watched as i was beaten daily and accused of things i never did. When the truth came out one day, i just couldn't bring myself to understand why anyone would want to put another human being in those conditions and enjoy themselves whilst the person suffered. Are human just that cruel? Do people just not care at all?
When i finally understood that this was a trait that many humans had inside, perhaps even myself, i wanted to create a worldwide mirror. I wanted to do something that would allow people to see themselves from that perspective. We all like to see people suffer! We all need to see people suffer to make ourselves feel better. That is the only reason why Jesus died on the cross, he had to prove to humans that he was willing to do anything for them, and what better way to do that than to live through the worst conditions ever for a day. That day Jesus died on the cross, that day he was brutally beaten and murdered by his own children, goes to show the true meaning behind the love that we have for our parents.
A child only appreciate his mother when he realizes that she had to push his big ass head out of her vagina. A cheating husband only appreciates his family after he gets involved into a car crash that paralyzes him from the waist down. People only get compensated for working. And God only cares for those who suffer for him. That is why rich men don't go to heaven. But there is a backlash to all of this sacrifice. As human beings we can only endure so much pain. Sorry Jesus we all can't be like you. We all can't have that willpower to resist the temptation to slap the right cheeks of those who slapped our left cheeks. Wee don't have the willpower to get back at those who hurt us and get away with it.
This is not a story of revenge, or is it? I don't know, but this woman, Assini was suffering at the mercy of the world and she prayed to her God to save her, he did not. This happens a lot of time, because sometimes God just wants to give a chance for others to learn from what you've gone through. Emmett Till had to be brutally murdered for people to realize that maybe being that damn racist just isn't fair. But why should i be made an example of? Why should i have to die for some idiot to learn from his mistakes and make himself better? Why shouldn't i fight back those who hurt me? Perhaps if i make them suffer, the same way they made me suffer then they'll realize that it hurts to suffer. Perhaps that is what goes inside the mind of a monster. So tell me, is it wrong for me to feel that way? Am i just like this woman who wanted revenge so much that she destroyed everything human about herself? Is it wrong that i actually think of her as a hero? Is Assini, actually the person in the mirror? Am i a monster? Are you?
From a writer's perspective i must say that i had a lot of sympathy for this character because of the way she was treated. I grew up in Africa and there are many times i witnessed injustice. There are many times i saw people go through things they were not supposed to all because people just labeled them as a black sheep. Growing up i remember being accused of stealing from my uncle and his wife and i remember being told that if i admit it to being a thief, i would be freed, but if i denied it, i would be beaten. The trick is you don't win either way. If you admit to being a thief, you will be beaten and if you don't you will be beaten until you admit to being a thief. Either way you will be beaten.
People face injustice all of the time, but i believe the most crucial and cruel way to be in that predicament is when you are accused of doing something or being someone that you are not. How do you prove yourself from that? There are so many things that you can say and do to defend yourself, but what if people want to actual truth but refused to accept it? What if people want to see you suffer? That ladies and gentlemen is exactly what i had to go through for a long time in my childhood.
The bitch who put me through all of this pain watched as i was beaten daily and accused of things i never did. When the truth came out one day, i just couldn't bring myself to understand why anyone would want to put another human being in those conditions and enjoy themselves whilst the person suffered. Are human just that cruel? Do people just not care at all?
When i finally understood that this was a trait that many humans had inside, perhaps even myself, i wanted to create a worldwide mirror. I wanted to do something that would allow people to see themselves from that perspective. We all like to see people suffer! We all need to see people suffer to make ourselves feel better. That is the only reason why Jesus died on the cross, he had to prove to humans that he was willing to do anything for them, and what better way to do that than to live through the worst conditions ever for a day. That day Jesus died on the cross, that day he was brutally beaten and murdered by his own children, goes to show the true meaning behind the love that we have for our parents.
A child only appreciate his mother when he realizes that she had to push his big ass head out of her vagina. A cheating husband only appreciates his family after he gets involved into a car crash that paralyzes him from the waist down. People only get compensated for working. And God only cares for those who suffer for him. That is why rich men don't go to heaven. But there is a backlash to all of this sacrifice. As human beings we can only endure so much pain. Sorry Jesus we all can't be like you. We all can't have that willpower to resist the temptation to slap the right cheeks of those who slapped our left cheeks. Wee don't have the willpower to get back at those who hurt us and get away with it.
This is not a story of revenge, or is it? I don't know, but this woman, Assini was suffering at the mercy of the world and she prayed to her God to save her, he did not. This happens a lot of time, because sometimes God just wants to give a chance for others to learn from what you've gone through. Emmett Till had to be brutally murdered for people to realize that maybe being that damn racist just isn't fair. But why should i be made an example of? Why should i have to die for some idiot to learn from his mistakes and make himself better? Why shouldn't i fight back those who hurt me? Perhaps if i make them suffer, the same way they made me suffer then they'll realize that it hurts to suffer. Perhaps that is what goes inside the mind of a monster. So tell me, is it wrong for me to feel that way? Am i just like this woman who wanted revenge so much that she destroyed everything human about herself? Is it wrong that i actually think of her as a hero? Is Assini, actually the person in the mirror? Am i a monster? Are you?
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